The beginning of your journey...
The beginning of your journey...
So, I've decided to put the ramblings of my Card of the Day here. I don't know if they will be helpful to anyone, but it's a good way to do some thinking about the card I'm drawing a day and the things I am learning about tarot. Besides, if I keep everything in a notebook hidden away, how does that help this blog grow? How does that help others who might need the beginner help to grow? I'm sometimes so lost at this reading the cards thing.
BiddyTarot says to put the book away. Intuit the card. And only use a book if it is absolutely necessary. But I also feel like there are vast volumes of wisdom to be found in the books about tarot. All the people who have gone before have their experiences to share. I felt that way when I was a part of the prophetic team at the church I went to. All of the books and videos, stories from people who had paved the way already -- all of their experiences were to be learned from and appreciated. Not ignored. So, perhaps it's a balance. Read on the side and draw on memory and intuition when exploring the cards for yourself and others.
So today, I drew the Star card. I used the Anna K deck, for which I like the Star card much more than the Radiant Rider-Waite deck. The Rider-Waite star is the first image below. The Anna K is the second.
So, now using the rough outline from BiddyTarot Card a Day - I will attempt to complete this assignment here on this blog and not just on a piece of paper.
Initial Impressions: the star is a guiding light, like an inner truth or a external guide. The water is life, rushing and emotion filled.
Symbols/Images that Stand Out: the water, the star, the darkness - the water is falling from tall dark cliffs you can barely see and only the presence of waterfalls lets you know they are there. But the star shines brightly, central and like a beacon.
What Emotion is Being Expressed: calm and peace. Though it is dark - this is a place I very much want to be. I reminds me of when I lived on the coast of Massachusetts, just outside of Gloucester proper, in a town called Magnolia. I would walk the two minutes to the water at 11pm or so, sit on the rocks, tucked into a niche and stare at the water breaking down on rocks below my perch. I would watch the moon rise on full moon nights. I would watch the way the water would lick the rocks in near darkness. Some nights when there was so much ambient light, or moon glow, the waves and the white froth was clearly visible. I was never afraid of being hurt or approached these nights. I was one with the water and crashing waves and all worry, anxiety, and worldly concerns were erased in the sounds and sights of the endless pounding of waves against those giant boulders. It was serene, peaceful, and calm beyond measure.
Greeting Card Message: the light within in, the peace of hope, is your guiding star.
Personal Experience (from this day): I don't think I would have come to this insight about The Star card if I had used the Radiant Rider-Waite Star (the first image above), but this card gets me to the point of today. I had a hard day. There was too much going on. Too much to do. We all had too much going on and too much to do. Some of my colleagues didn't get lunch today. I only did because a nurse I was trying to (unsuccessfully) problem solve with realized I was hangry and bitchy and told me to go eat. In the midst of this chaos, I was asked to go to Labor and Delivery where a mom had just been told her 39 week baby that was still in utero was no longer alive. I sat with them for about 20 to 30 minutes. And now that I think about it - maybe this star card is more for them than it is for me. Maybe they are the ones who need the peace and hope this card delivers. But I need/needed it too. I felt nauseated and disconnected the whole rest of the day. I worried I was getting a cold. I worried that I was becoming sick. All that has been going on - my boyfriend's mom's death, my totally full weekends, my lack of alone and "me" time. But as I look back on it - all of my sudden head-cold symptoms were probably low level anxiety for what this family was coping with and feeling. On top of that, I didn't feel like I knew how to support them.
This card represents an overarching peace and hope, no matter the circumstances, no matter how bleak, or dark the rest of world might look at the moment. This is not the end of the story.
The star card is a reminder to stop, pause, take a break, recognize where you are, recognize what you are feeling, recognize what you are going through, and to experience the pain, wonder, fulfillment of being alive fully.
The star card is the beacon that calls you back, asking you to allow yourself to rejuvenate in a peaceful spot even though the rest of the world or your life might be total chaos.