The beginning of your journey...
Initial Impression: Oh hell. I'm having a mammogram today - is this going to bring in massive destruction? Also, I had an ultrasound on my thyroid about two days ago, are the results going to be devastating? Am I picking up on my boyfriend's life, who is picking up his brick and mortar comic book store and making it 100% online?
What is happening in the picture: a bold of lightening has come down and is destroying the tower. The tower is on fire and people are falling off it, into the water below - presumably to their destruction.
Symbols/Images: What was a strong and sturdy tower is now destroyed. Lightening - an act of "god" or something out of ones control has come in to cause devastation.
Emotions being expressed: Fear. Terror. Panic.
Greeting Card Message: Perhaps today is a day you want to stay in bed. But if you decide to brave it, surround yourself in your support system today - you are going to need it.
Initial Impressions: Ho boy, are my thinkings about getting involved in the proposed business venture from yesterday just a pipe dream?
What is happening in the card: The woman in the card is exulting (or lamenting) the fact that she has these fantasies that may or may not be coming true - depending if you see her as exulting or lamenting, I suppose. The cups and pitcher she is imaging in the air are overflowing, and decorated with vines, and if you follow the vines down, they are on the porch too - so the cups in the air may not just be fantasy by reality, as reality is blending with the wished for outcomes. Maybe the woman is rejoicing at how well things have turned out. Her hands are wrapped around the vines and the glasses, showing that she is holding onto them. That what she is wishing for is in her grasp.
Symbols/Images: The pitcher is pouring you know there is plenty to overflow each glass and still have enough. The vines that wrap around the cups and the railing - life and fruitfulness.
Emotion being expressed: I guess that depends on how you see the card. If you see the individual as rejoicing, then she is grateful and this is a happy card. If you see her lamenting, then this is a warning, and uncomfortable card.
Greeting Card Message: Step out and be bold. Your dreams are plans unfilled - work toward them and you will achieve.
i want a redo on this one. I looked at what others have to say about this card, for I had remembered previously that the cups here represent fantasies that do not come to anything. Cynova in Kitchen Table Tarot says to step up and do the work to make the fantasies come to life, make them a reality. Pollack in 78 Degrees of Wisdom states that this card states that the fantasies come from deep needs, but the fantasies lack meaning because they do not connect with reality. Dean in The Ultimate Guide to Tarot states that the figure at the front of the card needs to discern reality from fantasy. The stress is that the fantasies are not real yet.
So, I pulled three cards, following Dean’s instructions for finding wisdom in the cards - in page 23, asking 3 times yes or no. I thought, “Should I get involved in this business venture?” and pulled a card. I did this three different times and got this spread:
That would be The Moon, the 3 of Swords, and the 5 of Pentacles. All three are on Dean’s list of cards that mean, “No.” Part of me wants to ask clarifying questions about what that means and looks like, but I think I get it. It’s a bit disappointing to not be getting in on this, but at the same point, I have other things I need to be focusing on - learning Mindfulness definitely. And then perhaps laying the groundwork for becoming a professional tarot card reader.
Initial Impressions: What can I do today to be more of a leader, more of an entrepreneur, and someone who is more wise with their finances, especially after the holiday gift-buying season.
What is happening in the card: a man in royal garb, and rich paraphernalia surrounding him, is holding a pentacle out to the viewer. He is older, wrinkled, and wise.
Symbols/Images: Riches and wealth are available - the pentacle in his hand and the riches around him. He wears big rings and a crown. But he also appears to be holding his wealth in items, like the bowl full of gold coins. He is not throwing them about, but storing these things up.
Emotion expressed in the card: It is peaceful and appears like he is offering his goods.
Greeting Card Message: Spend some time today looking at your budget, your finances, and get your financial house in order. It will give you peace beyond measure.
Personal Experience: Someone came up to me today and offered me a business opportunity. Normally, this is the kind of thing I would poo-poo and to which I would say emphatically, "No." Only this time, I'm wondering if the King of Pentacles is asking me to explore the idea of it. Explore the possibilities. She says she is making $8,000 a month on a good month. That would solve a number of problems quickly. I know that kind of money won't make me ultimately happy and satisfied, but I know from the few brief months of making a little bit of excess, a little more coming in (and I don't expect $8,000) makes a big difference in my anxiety levels. It is making me think. If the card I drew for today had been a different card, perhaps I would not be considering it at all.
Initial Impressions: The Page cards are the learners, they are the ones that impulsive and make mistakes because they are new at the training. They are young and learning, which means that they can be seen as the beginning or the start of the gifts the suit has to offer.
What is going on in the card: A young person - probably male, but sort of genderless individual - is sitting at the water's edge, fishing. It is unclear if they are using a pentacle as bait or if they have just caught a pentacle. The person is dressed lavishly and looks excited about the experience.
Symbols/Images: fishing for a pentacle - how to make money, wealth, and material comforts. It is also a lush landscape, along with the lavish dress of the Page, it seems that there is fruit here.
Emotions being expressed: Hope, anticipation of good things.
Greeting Card Message: (since this is a reversed card) All that you need to make the life you want to live is inside of you.
Initial Impressions: What internal victory will I win today?
What is happening in the card: A rather muscly man is standing above a crowd with his arms in the victory pose. I never noticed he is wearing a red loin cloth. He is celebrating and the crowd is cheering.
Symbols/Images: the banner flapping, the laurel leaves in his hair, the fact that he is standing taller than the crowd. There are roses at his feet. Accolades, and appreciation for a job well done.
Emotions being expressed: Jubilance, exhalation.
Greeting Card Message: Today is a day to celebrate you and your accomplishments. Let yourself shine.
But wait - this is reversed. So the Greeting Card Message should be: Appreciate your accomplishments. Acknowledge how far you have came and celebrate this moment.
Today's card is The High Priestess - a card that can be hard to apply to readings and the like.
Initial Impressions: I think she's so cool - sitting with the old gnarled tree, watching (helping?) the moon wax to full. I think there is a part of me that longs to be The High Priestess. A number of years ago, I was given the prophetic word at a church that I would be a Joan of Arc figure leading men (specifically men) into spiritual depths. This card (and figure) makes me think of that calling.
What is happening in the card: A woman dressed in blue and purple tones is sitting against a wizened and gnarled leaveless tree, while looking at the moon. It is possible she is watching the moon rise and we see the steps of it getting higher and fuller as she watches, or since a new-ish moon is in her lap, she is a part of its growth. She is next to a stone wall that protects her from a body of water that is practically next to her and her robe is partly in the water, as are some of the tree's roots.
Symbols/Images: The waxing moon, growing in potential and gifts. The fact that the figure is almost completed covered by clothing, that her wisdom and what she knows is private. That she is a solitary creature, one that learns and reflects alone.
Emotions being expressed: Peace, contentment, curiosity about spiritual matters and what is happening on a spiritual plain. Someone who is in tune with the earth and the cycles of life.
Greeting Card Message: What is unseen can be known and the wonders of nature of nature can be felt. You must carve out time to discover these truths for yourself.
Personal Experience: I spent the day being a bit weepy. It started with going to the cemetery first thing in the morning to lay my boyfriend's mom to rest. For the rest of the day I was a bit weepy about the eyes. I like cemeteries, don't get me wrong. When I was little, I would go and hang out in them, sit on the grave stones, sit and think. In my town, it was a bit of nature and peace. I liked it there. Then I went to a couple of Jewish funerals, where we were expected to watch the coffin lowered and people threw a shovel full of dirt on the coffin. Nononononono. I was afraid we were going to be asked to do the same. We weren't. Apparently in Catholic cemeteries, they aren't allowed to lower the coffin until the family has departed. I spent the rest of the day feeling like I wanted to cry and if I let myself, I would have. Around 4.30pm (1630 in military time), I was at the nail salon in Narberth listening to Book 7 of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows. I got to the spot where Dobby saves Harry Potter's life and dies in the process and as they buffed and shined and made my nails both beautiful and strong, I sat and cried. Anyone who doesn't cry at Dobby's death is a git, in my opinion.
I sat at the end of the day and reflected with my mom over dinner at the local pub about why I was so emotional. She pointed out that starting your day at the cemetery is not so easy. I think it might be the holidays too. The close of one year and not yet the excitement of the start of a new year's adventures. I think I find myself looking back on the year that passed around Christmas time, and reflecting on what has happened. This has been a pretty good year. It started a bit rocky and it kind of closed with Thom's mom passing, but for the most part, it's been a year of definition and a year of action that has led to a couple of new adventures, some of which will hopefully come to fulfillment in 2018.
Today's card in the 9 of Swords, again using the Anna K deck.
Initial Impressions: What is going to break my heart today?
What is happening in the card: an individual is in bed, awake in the middle of the night (from the waxing moon). She is distraught and apparently weeping.
Symbols/Images that stand out: the waxing moon. The weeping woman. The nighttime worries that always feels worse than the worries during the day.
Emotion being expressed: Worry, despair, grief, loss.
Greeting Card Message: In your darkest hour, you are not alone.
I don't do this often, but I thought Anna K's reflections from her "little white book" (which isn't so little) might be pertinent to put here, as she has interesting things to say about this card.
Anna K's reflections: Doubt, self-reproach, feelings of guilt and grief, the kind of stuff that keeps us up at night. "It stands for pondering and the anxious, pessimistic anticipation of thing that might happen."
Personal experience: Today I didn’t have a moment where I had grief or anxiety. I did have a moment where I thought, ‘This is it. I have nothing left to give.’ Then I had to “dig deep” and find that reserve bit of energy to pour out into someone else and their story - which is much more scary and overwhelming than my own.
This morning I did find myself worrying hardcore about my boyfriend’s health and well-being. I find myself worrying about something happening to him, especially because he doesn’t take as good a care of himself as I would like.
I have a deeper thought about this card. I know I’m doing too much. I’m too busy - for me. I’m pouring a ton of energy into work and taking care of things, and not taking enough time to hermit - something I truly need. I’m wondering if I don’t take time for me and time to hermit, if I will emotionally exhaust myself and I think I see this card as more of a warning. Especially with it coming after The Hermit card - yesterday or the day before.
Today's Card of the Day is the Queen of Cups from the Anna K deck.
Initial Impressions: I love how calm and in touch with herself and her emotions she is.
What is going on in the card: The queen, a long haired blond dressed in mostly dark, but some light blue, is sitting on rocks with her feet and one of her hands in the water the rocks edge. It is night, with a waxing moon and stars in the sky. There is a hint of a sunrise in the back left of the card and a couple of trees growing on the other side of the water's edge. She holds a cup in her right hand and has a serene look on her face.
Symbols and images: The water of emotions. The fact that she is touching the water shows that she is not hiding or running away from how she feels, but that she is engaging with her emotions. She may not be mastering them, but experiencing them, being at peace with whatever it is she happens to be feeling.
Emotions being expressed: Peace, calm, serenity.
Greeting Card Message: Today is a day to treat yourself with kindness and love. Today is a day to be kind to yourself and give yourself grace, mercy, and tender affection.
Personal Reflection: I found myself feeling maternal and concerned for a patient who was self-determining in ways that could be seen as unsafe for himself. I found myself understanding his desires and wishes but at the same time could see how his desires and wishes were potentially harmful. I feel like the Queen of Cups, especially, is the one that understands fear dictating a person’s emotions.
I find myself struggling a bit with the court cards. I know the pages are learning or impulsiveness and the Knights action, but queens and kings confuse me a bit. It’s weird to think of the court cards as a card of the day. Perhaps I should look for the person who represents the court card in my life that day, or how I can represent a court card that day as well.
Initial Impression: I don't see how I'm going to be much of the Hermit today. There is too much to do that requires other people.
What is happening in the card: The is a wizened figure, with long hair and a beard like Gandalf sitting in front of a light. He is on a mountain path with mountain above him. There is a blue glow in the distance, like a sunrise. He is alone.
Symbols or Images: The sunrise in the background. The blue glow that comes before the sun rises. And the light in the foreground. This person is intelligent, insightful, and able to see what is coming on the horizon.
Emotions being expressed: Peace, calm. A sense of knowing ones self and one's place. Taking time for one's self, to know one's thoughts and one's self.
Greeting Card Message: In the midst of your day-to-day hustle, bustle, and to-do, take time to get to know you.
Today's card is the 10 of Wands.
Initial Impressions: Oh god.
What is happening in the picture: The individual is cowering if fear and hiding from whatever power the wands are presenting. They clouds loom. But, I just got another thought. The wands represent power, right? Pollack in 78 Degrees of Wisdom talks about how The Fool uses the powerful wand to help him carry his belongings, not realizing the power of the object he uses - not realizing the potential for the wand he holds in his hands. Here the power of one's insight, one's spiritual strength, one's actions, and one's inspirations (all the things that wands represent) can be seen as protecting this poor freaking out, terrified person. There are ominous signs in the card, but the wands stand strong and put a protective barrier around this person.
What emotion is being expressed: When I had this card before I only saw the total anxiety (an emotion I experience all too often) this person is suffering from. This time, however, I see the wands as presenting an antidote, a method or way of overcoming and protecting oneself from the crippling negative emotions. The wands might not be an active card in this image, but a passive one, but it also subtly shows that today, I need to use my intuition, my inner strength, my ability to work through issues, and my ability to find inspiration inside myself despite circumstances.
Greeting Card Message: Though the world may look like it's falling apart. Look inside yourself and find the strength to rise out of the puddle you feel like you are. There is hope ahead and work to do.
Personal Experience: Today was a day I could have lost it. The list of things I had to do was ridiculous at the beginning. If I had looked at the to-do list and let the power of the list take me under, I would have crumbled. However, thinking of the 10 of Wands, their strength, their insight, their perspectives, I paused and made myself take a moment to find out what the to-do list was in reality before reacting. However, I did have some gastrointestinal distress. So, perhaps I did internalize the anxiety. Perhaps I did internalize other people's anxiety as well. Work morale really is shit and it makes me feel so crappy on a regular basis.
Today was a little different in that I thought about the positive view I took on this card - the wands being a strong defense - and used that for power against the workload, against the stress and anxiety, even against the gastrointestinal distress. I stood tall and found out the facts before letting my emotions roll me under. Yes, my body may have freaked out, and I might have felt a bit panicky as that was occurring (both times), but for the most part peace was a part of the story today, as were strength and a wait-and-see attitude.